I know so little of the big bad world. Its been so long that I’ve taken an independent decision that I fail to imagine a life without protection and shelter. When I was in my early twenties, I vowed to live my life, see the world, travel to Rome, Paris and Cairo – my top 3 cities – make friends from the around the globe, write a book, take some fantastic photographs; the list was endless. Having reached a stage when I leaving behind my twenties, my list is still long and much of it is still unattained.
Getting married and having a family is a noble cause. Its a noble cause for Ms. X, a personality so mirrored in the myriad women of India who have taken the final step to eternal (?) bliss. Someday I wish to do it as well. But is it the right time for me? All parents want their daughters and sons to settle down in life. My parents are no different. They believe that their responsibilities end once I’m on the matrimonial ship. I don’t begrudge them their opinion. But then, they are ordinary parents of an extra ordinary daughter!
My quest for the unknown has begun late, but its nowhere near its end. My journey outside the seas surrounding the coastline of this country is about to begin and I feel the excitement. I feel the power of the restlessness in me, the euphoria, the mirth and the utter glee with which I would sail into the ocean to a completely unknown future.
There is comfort in familiarity. It brings a sense of stability, a sense of security. Maybe it is for those who have journeyed to the ends of the earth who demand it, realizing that those journeys have fulfilled their purpose and brought them back to reality. I am yet to begin that journey. So maybe, this blog will see me, 12 months hence, putting forth a different state of mind. Maybe I will welcome that state of mind. But I refuse to give up that chance, and as I throw caution to the wind and set sail for an unknown destination I pray that my choices hold me in my stead and I do not have any regrets for this path I have chosen….
